OCD: Jumping Out The Window

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Even though I have been dealing with my OCD for as long as I can remember, there are still times that it mentally kicks my ass like if there’s no tomorrow. Specially when I’m stressed out. I have said it a million times and I will say it another million. Crazy meds have helped me a great deal, but they haven’t been able to stop or control the intrusive thoughts, which I hate so much.

As a matter of fact, at my June session with my shrink Dr. C, I had one of those OCD intrusive thoughts. As I was waiting for him to send the electronic prescription for my new crazy med to my pharmacy, the thought of me jumping out the window popped into my head. When I told him what was happening, he asked me. Do you want to jump? At which time I told him straight out… “No, no, no, no, no, no, no!”. To be honest with you, in a way, it was a great experience. You know, to be able to share with him one of my intrusive thoughts, as it was happening. I just hope that the new crazy med helps with that part of my OCD. Fingers crossed.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

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