Good morning and happy Monday my homies and homettes. I hope that you enjoy your new day to the fullest.
It has been a couple of weeks since I had my last beer and also, that I started taking my crazy meds on a daily basis, and to be honest, when it comes to my Bipolar II disorder and OCD, mentally, I feel way better than when I was at that dark time and in that dark place of my life.
The one thing that I have come to accept is, that no matter how hard I try and no matter how many crazy meds I take, my OCD intrusive thoughts will never go away. They come out of the blue and sometimes they are very scary, but one thing for sure is, that I have never acted them out.
Only because a fucked up intrusive thought pops into my head, doesn’t mean that I am that person. It only means, that my brain is not wired properly, and so I must learn how to deal with it and work hard, to feel better. The one thing that I did learned after my last binge drinking episode was, that alcohol doesn’t make it better. The reality of it all is, that in the end, it makes it worst.
With that said, I am Audi 5000 y’all!
Today Is My 31st Sober Day!