Those Pesky People And Places

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The other day, when I had my June session with my shrink Dr. C, I did mention to him that I knew what they meant when they say that I have to change people and places. The whole thing behind that is, that it is easier said than done. You see, the people who I hangout with are family members and friends who I have known for more than twenty years. So I just can’t walk away from them, simply because “I” can’t control my drinking once I have the first beer. I’m not blind, I can see that the problem is not them, but me.

I guess that what I am trying to say is, that even though I told my shrink that I will stop drinking, he is aware that I don’t have a plan, when it comes to people and places. The whole thing is, that since I only drink on the weekends, because I’m off from work, I really don’t have a plan as to what to do with my free time, except to just stay home, watch TV and listen to some music. Another thing is, that my wife and kids, don’t like doing the same things that I would like to do, like visiting a museum, go camping or hiking for example. I know that a while back, my shrink told me to try to go online in order to find groups of people, who are interested in the things that I am. For now, I’m just going to deal with staying sober. Then later on, I’ll try to find an online communities of sober people who go out, have fun and enjoy life without alcohol.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

Looking For My Passion

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First things first my peeps! Wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, good morning, good afternoon, good evening and good night. As always, enjoy your Tuesday to the fullest and don’t let nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens, why it happens, how it happens or where it happens.

On a passion note! As to my drinking, I know that I like to get drunk on the weekends only because I don’t have shit to do, plus I feel empty inside. I’m not talking about feeling empty in the wife and family sense, but in the personal sense. I feel empty, because I don’t have something to do, that will keep me busy. I feel empty, because I don’t have any something that I feel passionate about and go for it. You see, my wife and kids have found things that they love to do or are passionate about… in the other hand, I don’t. I’ve been searching for that one thing that I can fall in love with, but I haven’t been able to find it yet. That’s the real reason why I drink on the weekends. I guess that what I am trying to say is, that if I was able to find that little thing, I would throw my self into it so deep, that I will forget about drinking completely.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

Back To The Salt Mines

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First things first my peeps! Wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, good morning, good afternoon, good evening and good night. As always, try to enjoy your Wednesday to the fullest and don’t let nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

I know that I’ve been away for a couple of days and that’s because I had a three-day weekend and going back to the salt mines is like returning from a short vacation. It’s just not that easy getting back into the hamster wheel again. I did drink this past weekend, since I was hanging out with family and friends, but it wasn’t anything out of the ordinary. As to when I’m drinking again? I really don’t know, but you can be sure, that it’s going to take weeks before I do it again. It’s really fun while I’m doing it, but I feel like shit the next couple of days afterwards. So the reality of it is, that I’m not thinking about drinking again, unless it’s a special occasion or a holiday. I’m guessing that age has to do a lot with the hangover lasting longer. Plus maybe it has to do with me not drinking for weeks too. Other than that, I’m chilling like a villain for a while.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

Alcoholism: My Choice Vs A Disease

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A picture of what my friends were drinking at my home. I didn’t drink though!

First things first my peeps! Wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, good morning, good afternoon, good evening and good night. As always, enjoy your Friday to the fullest and don’t let nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

On a drinking choice Vs a disease note! I’m not going to come in here and claim to be an expert on alcoholism. But one thing that I can tell you for sure is, that I’m forty-eight years old and I have been drinking on and off ever since I was a teenager. As a matter of fact, I have stopped drinking on my own, for many years in a row and to be honest with you, I didn’t miss it at all. But for many, many, many years now, I have said that “I” believe alcoholism to be a learned behavior rather than a disease. I consider myself an infrequent binge drinker, because I’m able to stop on my own. Plus I only drink on the weekends, since I’m off from work. The thing is, that I only drink either when I’m socializing with family and friends or when I’m bored at home and I feel like just having a few cold ones while listening to some old music. The one thing that you can be sure about is, that I don’t drink because my brain needs it or wants it. When I see my friends drinking, do I want to join them sometimes? Yes! But then I think about how I’m going to feel like shit the next morning. Do I join them sometimes? Yes! But not because I need it, only because I made that choice on my own.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!