My Morning Depression And My Crazy Meds

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First things first my peeps! Wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, good morning, good afternoon, good evening and good night. As always, enjoy your Saturday to the fullest and don’t let nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens, why it happens, how it happens or where it happens. On a drinking side of things, today marks my nineteenth day without alcohol and I feel like Tony the fucking tiger… GRRRRREAT!

On a morning depression and crazy meds note! When I saw my shrink Dr. C on Thursday, I did mention to him that I have felt like shit on Tuesday and Wednesday morning. I also told him, that I had just realized, that on Saturday and Sunday, I forgot to take my Prozac, because I was very busy. But we figured out, that since it takes a couple of weeks for Prozac to get out of my system, my mistake couldn’t have been the problem. When I got home that evening, I realized that maybe, just maybe, I think that I forgot to take my Risperidone for two nights in a row and that might have caused all the symptoms that I was experiencing those mornings. The thing is, that for one reason or another, sometimes I do forget to take my crazy meds, which I know I shouldn’t because when that happens, sometimes my brain starts to go bat shit crazy on me. I might have to set up an alarm on my phone, but I hate it because I feel like a fucking child. Sometimes I wish that I didn’t have to take the damn crazy meds, but the truth is… that it is what it is.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

Morning Depression Sucks!

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What up! What up! What up! What up y’all! I just want to say, that wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours right now, have a good morning, good afternoon, good evening and good night. As always, enjoy your hump day to the fullest and don’t let nothing or nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

On a morning depression note! As I write this post, I’m on my way to the salt mines (Work) and I’m really feeling like shit this morning. I’ve experienced what they call morning depression before, but I have not been able to figure out why it happens to me. I really, really feel like a worthless piece of shit right now. I just want to be left alone. I just don’t want to talk to nobody at all. I just fucking hate feeling like this. But I refuse to stay in bed and avoid any human contact. I also have a headache, but not even that is going to stop me. The thing is, that I am feeling mixed emotions, like anger, sadness and depression… it doesn’t even make sense to me at all. Yesterday morning, I felt exactly the same way, but a few hours after I got to the salt mines, I started to feel better. As a matter of fact, after a one-and-a-half-hour meeting, a co-worker of mine told me that I looked very happy. Go figure, it goes to show you how good I am at hiding my feelings and emotions. I just hope, that I get over this shit soon. Lucky for me, that I have an appointment with my shrink Dr. C after work tomorrow. I’ll see how that goes down and what he thinks about this fucking nonsense that has been driving me crazy for the last two days.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!