After The Crazy Session

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Well, as I previously posted on this here crazy and insane blog of mine, yesterday I had a session with my shrink Dr. C and I was a little worried because my wife had previously called and spoken to him about my weekend binge drinking, which he already knew about, because I had mentioned it to him in many sessions before. The whole thing was, that I wasn’t sure, what he was going to say to me about my wife’s concern. I mean, I know that he feels that I drink because I’m an alcoholic and that I’m also self-medicating. But other than that, I really didn’t know what else to expect from him.

So when I saw him, he told me that my wife had called him, because she was really concerned about my weekend binge drinking. I told him, that I knew that I have been fucking up lately and that the only way to fix that, would be by staying sober from here on. He did understand, that I do self-medicate with alcohol, because it really helps with my OCD. So he prescribed me a new crazy med, that will help me with my drinking, but has an off-label use for the OCD intrusive thoughts too, which is the biggest issue that I have with my OCD. Don’t worry, when I find out the name and I start the new crazy med, I’ll keep you posted as to how it is going.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

June Session With My Shrink

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Today after work, I will be seeing my shrink Dr. C. The whole thing is a good thing and a bad thing at the same time. Why is it a good thing? Because even though I only see him once a month, I really enjoy talk therapy, and when I leave his office, I feel like if a thousand pounds were lifted off of my shoulders. Why is it a bad thing? Because my wife called him last week and talked to him about my weekend binge drinking, which he already knows about, but I don’t know what my wife had told him. I did called him yesterday, to confirm our session on June 14th and I asked him if in fact, my wife had called him, at which time he said yes.

The thing is, that when I started to see him around eight years ago, I signed a paper, that says, that he can give my wife any information that she requests. Why? Because I have been with her for so many years, that she might actually know me better than… ME! To be honest, I’m not nervous, because I really like him and I have always liked the way that he treats and works with me. I just hope that I don’t get sent to the loony bin though. Fingers crossed. Bwahahahahaha!

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

Thirty Minutes With My Shrink

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What up! What up! What up! What up y’all! Wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, I hope that you are having a good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. As always, enjoy your Friday to the fullest and don’t let nobody or nothing fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

On a weekend drinking note! Yesterday I saw my shrink Dr. C and we talked about my weekend drinking and binges. We came up with a plan, that since I have stopped drinking for five weekends in the past, this time I will go for six. He also mentioned, that I’m half way there, wich is true. But I did tell him, that I don’t see myself staying sober for the rest of my life. But I do see myself taking long no drinking breaks. He was OK with that and told me, that I should just start with small goals. I’m OK with that.

On a OCD intrusive thought note! Dr. C and I also got to talked about my OCD intrusive thoughts and how hard it is for me to talk about them. I did mentioned to him that I have been blogging about them again, he liked the idea. I told him, how before I got psychiatric help, I used to feel that I was a horrible person because of the awful thoughts. I really think that the crazy meds, talk therapy and blogging, has helped me open up a little more about them. The combination of all three, have really helped me.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

On My Way To See My Shrink

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First things first my peeps! Wherever you are right now in this crazy planet of ours, good morning, good afternoon, good evening and good night. As always, enjoy your Thursday to the fullest and don’t let nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens, why it happens or how it happens. On a drinking side of things, today marks my seventeenth day without alcohol and I feel great. If I don’t drink this coming weekend, it’s going to be my third alcohol free weekend. Woo! Hoo!

On a mental state of mind note! I have to say, that today I didn’t wake up feeling any morning depression, like the past two days, which is a good thing. I only woke up hungry and with a headache, which I can handle with breakfast and some painkillers. Today I have an appointment after work with my shrink Dr. C. But due to my car being in the shop for a couple of weeks, I’m currently broke, so I called Dr. C and left him a voice mail message, asking him if I could still see him today and pay him my co-payment next month when I see him again. I know that he won’t have a problem with it, because we’ve done it before and what matters to him is, that I don’t cancel our session. I just like to run it through him first, because that’s the responsible thing to do. I hope that after I see him today, he doesn’t lock me up in the padded room. Fingers crossed… Bwahahahahaha!

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!