Even though I hate the first day of the week, happy Monday. Hey, at least we get to see and enjoy our family and friends one more day. Woo-hoo!
I am happy to let you know that today is my twenty-fifth day without drinking and I feel great. But since I call myself a weekend binge drinking alcoholic, because I only drink on the weekends, except when I go on a bender, I have four weekends without drinking. I gotta tell you, it is incredible to wake up on a Monday morning without a hangover.
First, I would like to say, happy Sunday and I hope that you enjoy it to the fullest no matter what goes down. Remember, we only get to live once.
I am happy to inform you that today is my 24th day without drinking and I feel great. I’m not going to lie, I had a few urges during the weekends, but I attribute them to my long weekend drinking career. My brain got so used to my weekend binges and benders, that now, it associates them with drinking. It’s going to take a while for me to retrain my crazy and weird brain, but I know that I can do it, but I must be patient. They say, one day at a time, but in my case, I say one weekend at a time.
I would like to wish you all a happy New Year’s Eve. I hope that you enjoy it to the fullest with your family and friends, and if you drink, do it responsibly. Just remember, exactly twenty-two days ago today because of my drinking, I was in the hospital for four days with my liver inflamed. The doctor told me that I was lucky I didn’t cause any permanent damage, but to take the experience as a second chance and stop drinking.
Today, I’m off from work, so I will be helping my wife with dinner and some chores. Since my mother-in-law lives in the same building as we do, we will wait for 2022 with her. The one thing that you can be sure of is that I won’t be drinking any alcohol.
Yesterday was an exhausting day for me, because I had a big argument with my wife over some chores that we were supposed to do together, but she stopped doing her part, as soon as her aunt and friend showed up.
When I have arguments with her over stupid things, that are simply common sense, the anger that I feel makes me want to drink. But what makes it worse is, that even though she knows that she’s 100% wrong, instead of apologizing like I do when I make a mistake, she looks for excuses to justify her actions. And that right there, makes me want to drink even more. I love her to death, but sometimes she pushes my buttons. But I’m glad that I didn’t drink, and because of that, today is my eighteenth sober day.
Being a weekend binge drinking alcoholic, today I’m happy to say that this is my second sober weekend and I feel great. When it comes to counting days, today is my seventeenth day without drinking. Since I’m not a daily drinker, I really don’t miss alcohol, except for some weekends, when I get a few urges. But that has to do with an old bad habit, than my body needing alcohol to function.
The one trick that I use on the weekends to keep my crazy mind away from thinking about alcohol, is to keep myself busy. In fact, my wife knows this, and she does everything that she can, to keep me busy, but sometimes she overdoes it. There have been weekends, when as soon as I get home from shopping with her, I go to sleep. Don’t get me wrong, I like it… but damn!
Well, it is official, my 2021 Christmas was a sober one and I am glad, because I did not wake up with a fucked-up hangover and a mind full of regrets. I am not going to lie, I did have a few urges to drink, but that had to do more with my weekend and holiday drinking habit, which started when I was a teenager. My crazy and weird brain looks at the weekends and holidays as all I can drink days. I know That’s fucked up and hard to admit, but I must face the truth. The only thing that I have left to do is to retrain my brain, but I do not have a problem with that, because I am all in.
Also, it was a quiet Christmas eve, and I am guessing that the surging cases of Omicron in New York City had a lot to do with it. I know some people, who did not allow family and friends who were not vaccinated, to join their Christmas party, to protect themselves and their family. But it is what it is.
I’m not going to waste your time by telling you my entire drinking history, but two things that I would like to mention are, that I started drinking and smoking cigarettes and weed with my friends back in the mid 80’s when I was a teenager, and that on Thursday December 9 2021, I was admitted for four days into the hospital, because my liver was inflamed, after seven days of continuous binge drinking.
The reason that I say that I was scared sober is, because when the liver doctors came to see me on that Saturday, they explained to me, that I did not have any permanent damage, BUT… to take this as a second chance, because the next time, I might not be so lucky. They told me straight out, that I MUST stop drinking alcohol, smoking cigarettes and take better care of myself. I told them that I see this second chance given to me as a sign and that they could be sure that I would never drink again.
Since I have always been a weekend binge drinker, who could go for months without alcohol, getting sober has not been that hard at all, in fact, today is my 15th sober day and I feel great. The hardest thing for me to do is to quit smoking cigarettes, but I am not going to go crazy by quitting both at the same time, first I am going to manage my drinking, then the smoking.