OK my homies and homettes, today is Good Friday and since I’ve always gotten fucked up drunk every year on good Friday, there have been many times today, when I had really fucked up urges to drink like a motherfucker. As a matter of fact, I had my last ten dollars in my pocket and many times, I though about going to the bodega to buy a couple of really cold beers. I mean, I know that I’ve been sober for close to three weeks and I really cannot drink, because once I get started, all bets are off, but from time to time, I still get those fucked urges.
Very soon, I will start reading a book titled Rational recovery: The new cure for substance addiction, by Jack Trimpey. But I know that AA, a book or anything that I try in order to stay sober, can only help me, if I’m willing to be strong and not fall for any stinking thinking or any other bullshit that comes my way. Nothing or nobody, can and will not be able to help me, unless I’m willing to help myself. Fingers crossed to make it through today, my homies and homettes… Fingers crossed.
With that said, I am Audi 5000 y’all!