Non-Alcoholic Beer

Good afternoon boys, girls and others, I am happy to report that today is my 90th day without drinking and I feel fucking great. No hangovers or regrets to deal with in the past two months and twenty-nine days. Trust me, the ride hasn’t been a smooth one, but I’m still on the wagon.

Also, since I have been a weekend Heineken binge drinker for many years, whenever I feel like having a couple of beers on a hot weekend, I have a couple of Heineken 0.0, which is a non-alcoholic beer, that tastes exactly like the real one. Some people have warned me about my little experiment, but once I drink at least three non-alcoholic beers, I’m done and the urge is gone. I’m just doing it, until my brain gets used to not having the alcohol effect on the weekends

With that said, I am Audi 5000 kids!

The Love Of My Life

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; Courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.

Good morning and happy Saturday boys, girls and others, I hope that you enjoy your day to the fullest no matter what goes down.

Today I am greatful to be alive and to be able to enjoy another day with my family and all the people in my life who love me, who care for me, who worry about me and who only want the best for me. I am also greatful to have 80 days without drinking and going strong. During those days, I had my ups and down, but I’m still going strong.

The only thing that I ask for, is for the love of my life, who had a coronary artery stent put in about a month ago, and who will be schedule for another one in the next few weeks to feel better. It really hurts me, to see the person who I have shared my whole life with and who is my first true love, feeling sad, tired and crying most of the time, because even though I am there for her 24/7, she is not able to do the things that she used to do and she feels that she has lost her freedom. I just wished, that I could taker her place, because I rather suffer myself, than to see go through all of this.

Yesterday, the cardiologist told us, that my wife will feel way better, once the second stent is put it and the blood pressure meds are reviewed, because one of the many side effects of the meds is feeling tired. When the doctor told us that, I saw a big smile and a big change in my wife, which made me super happy. I try to keep her happy and smiling, with my stupid jokes and making sure that she has everything that she needs. Also, the cardiologist gave me a letter, asking for my employer to approve me to work from home for the next two months, so I can keep an eye on my wife and assist her in any way possible.

Today, I will be working on having more patience with myself and others, and learning how to live life on life’s terms and not on Tony’s terms.

With that said, I am Audi 5000 y’all!

Grateful, thankful, and working on

Good morning and happy Tuesday kids, I hope that you enjoy your day to the fullest no matter what goes down.

Today I am grateful for being alive and being able to see my family and friends one more day. I am also grateful for being alcohol free for 76 days and not having to deal with a fucked-up hangover or any regrets after a three-day weekend.

I am thankful for having a great manager that saved my life, my marriage, and my job, by doing everything in her power to send me to an inpatient alcohol rehab facility in upstate New York for one month. She was able to see something in me that I have never been able to see in my entire life.

Today I am working on having more patience and spending time doing the things that I like and enjoy.

With that said, I am Audi 5000 y’all!

I’m Back Bitches!

Good morning and happy Thursday boys, girls and others, I hope that you enjoy your day to the fullest no matter what goes down. Just remember, don’t be an asshole to others, because we have enough of those already, we sure don’t need another one.

As for me? Today I am grateful that I am alive and able to share another day with my family and friends. I’m also grateful because today is my 36th sober day and I’m not having to deal with a fucked-up hangover, trying to piece together what I did or did not do yesterday during a blackout, or having to deal with regret, guilt and other shit.

Remember, enjoy life today because yesterday is gone and tomorrow is never promised, don’t make plans, make arrangements.

With that said, I am Audi 5000!