The Not So Perfect Life

Do you want to know who I find very stupid yet funny? The so-called lifestyle bloggers. I mean, these people blog about life, but when you look close… they are just a whole bunch of bullshitters. The thing is, that my whole life, I have always been honest with people and I have always liked people who have been honest with me, and that is the reason why I say, that lifestyle bloggers are full of bullshit, because they don’t have on ounce of honesty in their entire body.

The one thing that I like to let my loyal 1.5 readers is, that I don’t do this for fame and or money, I just do it to be able to say out-loud, the crazy shits that are going through my crazy mind and some of the things that I am currently dealing with in my life. So called lifestyle bloggers just love to portray their lives as being perfect… and I have to tell you, that there is no such thing as a prefect life. You can be as poor as poor can be, you can be as rich as rich can be or you can be right smack in the middle of everything, but I bet you one thing… your life is far from being perfect. That’s the reason why sometimes, you don’t see me post shit for days… because sometimes, life gets the best of me and I just feel like shit, and I just don’t feel like blogging. Maybe, just maybe, you have noticed, that lately, I have been trying to get into the habit of blogging, even when I feel like shit, just to get it out of my system or get out of the funk. The reality of it all is, that my life sucks… sometimes, then I move on. But I don’t try to hide that from my loyal 1.5 readers, because that’s just not me.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!


What’s New?

First things first my peeps! Today is my twenty-third sober day and like always… I feel like Tony the fucking tiger… GRRREAT! No anxiety, depression or hangover whats so ever. Because of that, I have gone back to doing something that I really enjoy… and that is reading. Believe or not, when I don’t drink alcohol for a while, since I have a lot of time on my hands and since I feel good health wise, I enjoy reading an interesting book from time to time. Surprised? Don’t worry, when I stayed sober for a while before, my wife and kids were also surprised, to see me reading a couple of books in just one month. They’ve never seen me reading anything before… well except for newspapers, letters and menus.

On another note! I don’t know if you’ve noticed by now, that last week I decided to change my blog’s name from “A crazy GUY with a blog” to “A crazy MAN with a blog”. Why you might ask? Well, I felt that the word “guy” was kind of like childish, compared to the word “man”. So I checked and the new domain name was available, so I bought it. Don’t worry about it, my crazy and insane blog posts are still going to be the same. What I’m trying to say is, that only because the blog name changed, absolutely nothing’s going to change. I’m still the same old crazy guy… or better yet, crazy man who I have always been.

With that Said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

Depression Sucks!

Life sucks and then some! There are people out there that like myself, feel that they suck as human beings, fathers, mothers, brothers, sisters, sons, daughters… well I guess you know where I’m going with this. You see, to be honest with you, I have my good days and my bad days. There are a lot of days that I just don’t want to get out of bed and face the world. I just want to be left alone in my little cocoon. But the reality of it all is, that no matter how fucked up I feel in  a given day, I have to get out of bed and deal with life. Hey look! I’ve been off of Prozac for close to two months now, but that was my choice. Even while I was on Prozac, there were days that I felt like shit. But I still dealt with them as they came.

For a very long time I thought that I was going to be on crazy meds my whole life. But I have to say, that I believe that my shrink thought that too. I guess I decided to go off Prozac, because I wanted to know what it feels like to be me again. Don’t get me wrong, I still take my anxiety and mood meds, but only when needed. I guess that what I am trying to say is, that I know for a fact that I need my crazy meds from time to time, but one thing for sure is, that I don’t believe that I need them to be able to function in life. To be honest with you, this here crazy and insane blog of mine has helped me tremendously when it comes to dealing with my crazy thoughts and depression, because I get to say how and what I feel.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

To My Loyal 1.5 Readers

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OK! OK! OK! OK! OK! I know that maybe, just maybe, the one question that .5 out of my loyal, crazy and insane 1.5 readers have been asking for a long time is… What the fuck do you mean by 1.5 readers Tony? Either is 1 or 2 damn it! Well, this is it! The cat is finally out of the bag! Any time that I say 1.5 readers, a picture like this one, pops up in my crazy and insane head. Why? The reality of it all is, that I really think that there aren’t many people out there, other than my loyal 1.5 readers, who actually read my crazy, boring and insane blog posts. I think that people might and I really don’t know how to emphasize this, but just might, skim through my posts and move on to better and more interesting blogs.

My whole point is, that unlike most of society nowadays, I don’t look for attention or approval from others. The whole thing about me is, that I do things because I enjoy them and I like them, not to because someone told me to do it or to get fame and or money. My advice to my loyal 1.5 readers is… do things for you, not for others or just because others are doing it. Do take advice, but don’t follow the so-called leaders! Why? Because that is so fucking stupid! Just look at it this way. Do I care that no one actually reads my posts? No way Mexican Jose! As long as I get the shits out of my head and on to something, I’m OK with that. Unless you are being a dick or an asshole… just be yourself and don’t change for absolutely nobody!

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

Shits I Don’t Blog About

Even though I say “It’s a blog about nothing”, and I blog about anything and everything that has to do with me, there are three topics that I don’t blog about, and they are as follows, #1) Politics, #2) Religion and #3) Sports. First things first, and I have to be honest with my loyal 1.5 readers. I hate the fucking stupid and ignorant so-called lifestyle bloggers. Why? Because I hate people who do something for the money and not because they love it. Another reason is, that they blog about shit that they don’t know the first thing about, like mental health and other topics that they should just shut the fuck off about. WOW! I really had to get all of that shit out of my system!

Now getting back to the three topics that I don’t touch on my here crazy and insane blog. I don’t blog about politics, because everyone has a different point of view when it comes to who is a better political candidate and why. I also have to add that I hate politicians, because they are fucking liars and assholes, who would do and say anything, just to get elected. On the other hand, I don’t blog about religion because plain and simply put, I don’t believe in any of them and all of their bullshit stories. I believe in what I believe, the way that I want to believe. And last, I don’t blog about sports, because I am not into them, plus I believe that athletes are overpaid assholes, with gigantic egos, thin skins and who are also suffering from small penises complex. They play the many sports, not because they love it, but because they want to become rich celebrities, who think the world owes them something. In more clear words… they can all go fuck themselves!

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

I’m Just Myself

I remember that when I was a kid, I wanted to be just like a superhero. I remember that for Halloween, my parents always got me a superhero costume. As I grew older and I learned about history, I just wanted to be like some people in history, you know, people who change things for the good of humanity. The whole thing is, that looking back in my life, I always wanted to be like someone else, never did I just thought about being myself. I mean, I wanted to make history, I wanted to help humanity and I also wanted to change the world if I could. Never did it occurred to me, just to be myself.

The point that I am trying to make here is, that I see so many people going out in the world, trying to change everything or trying to be like someone else. I feel that they try so hard, that they get lost or better yet, they lose themselves in all the bullshit. The one thing that I learned in my early 20’s was, that I shouldn’t give a flying fuck, about what others thought about me. That included how I looked, dressed, talked, sounded, viewed everything, how much money I had, what I could or not afford and how I lived my life in general. The way that I look at life now is, that as long as I am not hurting myself or anyone else, I shouldn’t give a fuck about what people think or say about me. What I am trying to say here is, that I love being me! I just don’t give a rat’s ass about people’s fucked up opinions and you shouldn’t either. Just be yourself. Feel comfortable in your skin.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

It’s A Blog About Nothing

It’s funny, but I try to post to this here insane blog almost everyday. But the number one question that keeps popping into my mind is. Why do some people even bother reading all the crazy shit that I write about? I mean, does it even makes sense to them? First of all, I don’t have a niche or topic, so I post about anything and everything that comes to my mind on a given day. And second of all, I don’t even know what I am doing. I know, I know, I know, I know, I know… It doesn’t make sense at all to all of my loyal 10 readers. But to be honest with you, it really doesn’t even make sense to me at all either. You have to understand, that I also blog in order to get my crazy thoughts out of my head and on to something.

I know that out of my loyal 10 readers, maybe 1 or 2 might ask. Why the fuck is this a blog about nothing, when you blog about your thoughts? Like I mentioned before, my blog is not a niche blog or a blog about a specific topic. That is the reason why I call it that. To me, it is a place to breathe out, exhale and in other words, get shit out of my mind. It’s a way for me not to go insane. I know that I am crazy because of my multiple mental disorders, but one thing that I can assure you is, that I am not insane… or at least not yet… I feel that I am not there yet, but I am pretty sure that I am getting there. One thing that I would like to say from the bottom of my heart is, thank you for reading my crazy blog about nothing. Better yet, thanks to those who take the time from their busy and crazy lives, to comment on my crazy posts.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!