That Makes Me Want To Drink!

Dear Friends,

Yesterday was an exhausting day for me, because I had a big argument with my wife over some chores that we were supposed to do together, but she stopped doing her part, as soon as her aunt and friend showed up.

When I have arguments with her over stupid things, that are simply common sense, the anger that I feel makes me want to drink. But what makes it worse is, that even though she knows that she’s 100% wrong, instead of apologizing like I do when I make a mistake, she looks for excuses to justify her actions. And that right there, makes me want to drink even more. I love her to death, but sometimes she pushes my buttons. But I’m glad that I didn’t drink, and because of that, today is my eighteenth sober day.

Sincerely,

Tony

The Weekend Binge Drinking Alcoholic

Dear Friends,

Being a weekend binge drinking alcoholic, today I’m happy to say that this is my second sober weekend and I feel great. When it comes to counting days, today is my seventeenth day without drinking. Since I’m not a daily drinker, I really don’t miss alcohol, except for some weekends, when I get a few urges. But that has to do with an old bad habit, than my body needing alcohol to function.

The one trick that I use on the weekends to keep my crazy mind away from thinking about alcohol, is to keep myself busy. In fact, my wife knows this, and she does everything that she can, to keep me busy, but sometimes she overdoes it. There have been weekends, when as soon as I get home from shopping with her, I go to sleep. Don’t get me wrong, I like it… but damn!

Hoping to hear from you soon.

Your friend,

Tony

A Very Sober Christmas Story

Dear Friends,

Well, it is official, my 2021 Christmas was a sober one and I am glad, because I did not wake up with a fucked-up hangover and a mind full of regrets. I am not going to lie, I did have a few urges to drink, but that had to do more with my weekend and holiday drinking habit, which started when I was a teenager. My crazy and weird brain looks at the weekends and holidays as all I can drink days. I know That’s fucked up and hard to admit, but I must face the truth. The only thing that I have left to do is to retrain my brain, but I do not have a problem with that, because I am all in.

Also, it was a quiet Christmas eve, and I am guessing that the surging cases of Omicron in New York City had a lot to do with it. I know some people, who did not allow family and friends who were not vaccinated, to join their Christmas party, to protect themselves and their family. But it is what it is.

Hoping to hear from you soon.

Your friend,

Tony

Scared Sober: The Beginning

Dear Friends,

I’m not going to waste your time by telling you my entire drinking history, but two things that I would like to mention are, that I started drinking and smoking cigarettes and weed with my friends back in the mid 80’s when I was a teenager, and that on Thursday December 9 2021, I was admitted for four days into the hospital, because my liver was inflamed, after seven days of continuous binge drinking.

The reason that I say that I was scared sober is, because when the liver doctors came to see me on that Saturday, they explained to me, that I did not have any permanent damage, BUT… to take this as a second chance, because the next time, I might not be so lucky. They told me straight out, that I MUST stop drinking alcohol, smoking cigarettes and take better care of myself. I told them that I see this second chance given to me as a sign and that they could be sure that I would never drink again.

Since I have always been a weekend binge drinker, who could go for months without alcohol, getting sober has not been that hard at all, in fact, today is my 15th sober day and I feel great. The hardest thing for me to do is to quit smoking cigarettes, but I am not going to go crazy by quitting both at the same time, first I am going to manage my drinking, then the smoking.

Hoping to hear from you soon.

Your friend,

Tony