Yesterday, I spent hours doing online research in order to find out if I’m an alcoholic or a trouble drinker, only to stop and ask myself, why the fuck do I want to be labeled anyway? Who the fuck cares if I’m an alcoholic or a trouble drinker? Even my wife told me yesterday, that she knows that I have a drinking problem, because when I DO drink, I go on a bender for a few days, but that I wasn’t an alcoholic, because I could go for months without drinking without a problem. So, what is it with us, wanting to be labeled?
With that said, I am Audi 5000 y’all!
Honestly, even though sometimes I do go on long weekend benders because my problem with alcohol is that once I have the first beer, all bets are off for a couple of days, I have never considered myself an alcoholic. The reason for that is, that the weekends that I do drink are because I am bored to death and don’t have shit to do and nowhere to go, but not because my body craves or needs alcohol. As a matter of fact, if I keep myself busy, I can go months without drinking on the weekends, and never miss it.
But, since working from home for over a year because of the pandemic has been driving me crazy, I decided to attend a couple of AA meetings and go to church, in order to get out of the everyday routine, keep my sanity and meet new people. I can’t lie, it took me a while to figure it out, but I’m sure that I will be OK.
With that said, I am Audi 5000!