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About My Crazy Meds

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Old Dog New Trick

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Yesterday I was reading an excellent post titled “Did You Choose the Wrong Topic for Your Blog?” at the blog The Art Of Blogging. To be honest, this was the first blog post about blogging, that not only grabbed my attention, but made me rethink what I’m doing with my crazy blog and what is it that I want from it. As a matter of fact, because of the post, I changed my blog’s tagline. What I’m saying is, that when I created my blog, I did it not only to be open about my mental health and sobriety, but most importantly, to meet others similar to me.

They say that you can’t teach an old dog new tricks, but I can tell you, that Cristian Mihai proved not only that people who say that, are wrong, but he went ahead and taught this old dog a new trick. I have to say, that from time to time, my posts would get some views and likes, but rarely a comment. After reading Cristian’s post, I realize what the problem were my topics. Yes, my topics. You see, I was blogging about my day, when nobody gave a fuck about it. I mean, people do care about my day, but only if I write about how I dealt with my mental health and sobriety on that specific day. So from now on, I’m going to take a new approach at this thing called blogging.

With that said, I’m Audi 5000 y’all!

My Complicated Sober Weekend

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OK my homies and homettes, this weekend was a long one for me, because I had to stay home, due to my lower back acting out again. But the biggest problem wasn’t my lower back, as a matter of fact, my biggest problem was staying sober. You see, I just got started on two medications that are supposed to help me with my urges to drink, but still, this past weekend really kicked my ass. I wanted to drink so bad, that I wasn’t even thinking straight. It was just so fucking crazy, that there were times, when I thought about buying a couple of beers and sneaking them into the apartment, so my wife and daughter wouldn’t know. But then I would come to my senses and realize, that I was just experiencing stinking thinking and that I shouldn’t go ahead with my stupid plan, because I was going to fuck up my sobriety, after staying sober for three weeks.

The funny thing is, that since I’m what I like to call, a weekend alcoholic, I don’t get those urges on regular week days. I guess that my brain has gotten so used to my weekend binges, that as soon as it is Friday, it’s looking forward to getting drunk. I’m just hoping, that with time and the meds, the weekend urges will eventually go away. I know that I need to have patience with myself, but when it comes to sobriety, to be honest, it is easier said than done.

With that said, I’m Audi 500 y’all!