Getting Back To Normal

Well good morning y’all! Wow! I have to say, that after a weekend of drinking, today is the first day that I feel kind of like back to normal. For the past few days, I felt like shit. And that only means one thing… that I won’t be drinking anytime soon for sure. I really must be crazy, to drink and then feel like shit for like two to three days. I mean, don’t get me wrong, at the time that I’m drinking, I don’t think about the hangover, I just think about the fun that I am having, but then, it hits me… THE HANGOVER!

I think that I am going to be sticking to reading books and watching old reruns of “Law and Order” and sitcoms that I enjoy watching so much. As for the drinking… I’ll live that to the professionals, because I really suck at getting back to normal, I really do. I mean, who in their right mind, will drink like a crazy person, then feel sick as hell for a couple of days? Well… a crazy man with a blog, that’s who!

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!


He Didn’t Put Me In The Padded Room

First things first my peeps! Today is Friday and it is the start of what I like to call my weak days. Why do I call it that? Because I love to binge drink on the weekends. In other words, I’m weak on the weekends, when it comes to drinking. But no worries, I’m looking forward to staying sober this weekend, which is going to be my fourth sober weekend. I do feel good about not drinking for so long, but what I really want to do is, beat my own sober record of four weekends. I mean, I’m not saying that I’m staying sober for the rest of my life, I’m just staying sober for a little while. How long? I really can’t say.

On another note! Yesterday I saw my shrink Dr. C. I did talk to him about my morning depression and how I’ve been feeling like shit in the morning. He did mention that he would like to try Lithium again, but first I’ll need to get some blood work done. So right now, I’ll have to get the paperwork from my primary doctor and then I can get the blood work done. I did try Lithium before, but I was only on a low dosage, because I didn’t get the blood work done at all. So, I never got to a therapeutically level at all. I did tell Dr. C, that I will get the blood work done within the next two weeks.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

Session With My Shrink

First things first my peeps! If my calculations are right, today is my 25th sober day and like always, I feel like Tony the fucking tiger… GRRREAT! To be honest with you, I’m really proud of myself, since I haven’t been sober for so long in a long ass time. Right now, I’m really looking to stay sober for more than a month, which means, that I will be breaking my sober record. To be honest with you, I had my stinking thinking moments, but I dismissed them without a second thought. Plus I’ve been enjoying something that I really like to do, which is reading book written by some interesting people.

As for today, I will be seeing my shrink Dr C. As a matter of fact, in our session today, I will be bringing up, how I’ve been feeling like shit lately, but especially in the morning. I know that it might be connected to so much shit that I have on my plate right now. I guess that I have to learn how to deal with all that shit. I mean, don’t get me wrong, things will eventually get better, because they always do. It’s just that sometimes, it is just overwhelming for me. Sometimes, I just feel like if I can’t deal with it all anymore. Sometimes I just feel, like if everything is going out of control… if you know what I mean. But what can I say… that’s just life. Like they say… it is what it is.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

What’s New?

First things first my peeps! Today is my twenty-third sober day and like always… I feel like Tony the fucking tiger… GRRREAT! No anxiety, depression or hangover whats so ever. Because of that, I have gone back to doing something that I really enjoy… and that is reading. Believe or not, when I don’t drink alcohol for a while, since I have a lot of time on my hands and since I feel good health wise, I enjoy reading an interesting book from time to time. Surprised? Don’t worry, when I stayed sober for a while before, my wife and kids were also surprised, to see me reading a couple of books in just one month. They’ve never seen me reading anything before… well except for newspapers, letters and menus.

On another note! I don’t know if you’ve noticed by now, that last week I decided to change my blog’s name from “A crazy GUY with a blog” to “A crazy MAN with a blog”. Why you might ask? Well, I felt that the word “guy” was kind of like childish, compared to the word “man”. So I checked and the new domain name was available, so I bought it. Don’t worry about it, my crazy and insane blog posts are still going to be the same. What I’m trying to say is, that only because the blog name changed, absolutely nothing’s going to change. I’m still the same old crazy guy… or better yet, crazy man who I have always been.

With that Said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

I Feel Good!… So Good!


This past weekend was my third sober weekend in a long ass time, and like always, I feel like Tony the tiger… GRRREAT! To be honest, I did have a few times when I had stupid thinking, when I felt like just having a few beers. But then I came to my senses and asked myself. WHY? I mean, throughout these three sober weekends, I have been feeling great, with no anxiety, depression or hangover. Don’t get me wrong, because while I was shopping with my wife on Saturday, I saw a couple of people buying cases of beer, and that was one of the times, when I thought about getting a case for myself. But then it hit me and I asked myself. Do I want to feel like shit, the next day?

Even my father in law, who is staying with us and my friends who were playing poker, asked me if I wanted to have a couple of beers, since they were drinking. My answer was no. The reality of it all is, that I really don’t know how long I want to stay sober. In other words, I didn’t make a plan, set a goal or even a date, as to when I’m going to drink again. Right now, I’m just enjoying the way that I feel without drinking. I also have to mention, that I don’t drink on regular weekdays, my problem is that I binge drink on the weekends. So for now, I’m just staying away from alcohol and enjoying my sober weekends to the fullest.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

Stinking Thinking

Sunday February 11th was the last day that I had a couple of beers, but I have to say, that I didn’t get drunk like I usually do on the weekends. I guess that what I am trying to say is, that I have been sober for sixteen days in a row. Whoo-Hoo! And to be honest with you… like always… I feel like Tony the fucking tiger… Grrreat! I have to be honest with my loyal 1.5 readers, but the truth of the matter is, that I did have a couple of thoughts about drinking throughout those days, but I just dismissed them as stinking thinking. I’m not going to say that I dueled on them for hours on end, they just lasted a minute or two, but that was it.

The truth is, that there are a couple of things that I don’t miss from not drinking and they are the hangover, the anxiety and specially the depression that consuming alcohol creates for me. Plus like I mentioned on a previews post, my wife is happy that I am not drinking, which is a good thing. You have to understand, that making my wife happy, is one of my main goals in life. I really have to say, that mentally wise, I feel fucking great, because I can think clearly and I am able to focus better at work. I just have to see, how long I can keep this up. Right now, I am looking to staying sober for at least a month or so. Who knows, once I get to my goal, I might go for a longer sober time. Fingers crossed though.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

Staying Sober

I have to say, that this past weekend was my second sober weekend and I feel like Tony the tiger… GRRREAT! No hangover or anything that can make me feel like shit. Another thing is, that my wife has been happy too. She even went as far as saying that I was really doing good, by deciding not to drink for the second weekend in a row. Even though a couple of my friends showed up to play poker and they drank beer, I just didn’t feel like drinking at all. Also, even though I was bored to death, because there was nothing interesting on TV, I just didn’t feel like drinking. I also have to remind you, that I have been able to stay sober for four weekends in a row, without a problem. As to how long am I going to stay sober this time… I really can’t answer that. But I know, that it is going to be for a while, because I really enjoy waking up in the morning and not feeling like shit.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

No Hangover The Next Day

I remember that after being sober for five years, I thought about trying nonalcoholic beer for a while. The way that I looked at it back then was, that since it tasted like beer, but it didn’t have any alcohol, it would be OK for me to drink it. A few people did tell me, that it was going to screw up my sobriety, because after having a few of them, I would want to drink the real thing. To be honest with you, I just looked at them, as if they were fucking crazy and didn’t know what the hell they were talking about. Well… a few years after drinking regular beer and finding out that my alcohol tolerance is higher, I look back and realize, that those people were absolutely right.

The way that I look at it now is, that even if I’m not getting drunk because my alcohol tolerance is higher, if I try nonalcoholic beer, I would want to drink the real thing, because I just love getting drunk. I guess, that what I am trying to say is, that no matter what, I’m really going to stay away from alcohol or anything that tastes like it for a while. To be honest with you, last weekend was my first in a while, that I didn’t drink, plus I just didn’t feel like drinking at all. I have to say, that my wife was surprised and happy. I mean, she doesn’t mind my drinking, she just hates that I binge drink. She tells me, that she is alright with me having just a few beers on the weekends, it’s just that she hates that I always binge drink, to the point that I go to bed crazy drunk. What’s the best thing about not drinking? No hangover the next day.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

I’m Done With Drinking Alcohol

Just to make it clear, I only drink on the weekends and not on my work days. So, for the past few weekends, like most of the time, I’ve been drinking. But the one thing that I’ve noticed is, that I am getting sick and tired of it. For some weird reason, I just feel like not drinking anymore. I mean, what is the whole point of drinking? Getting drunk and then feeling like shit the next day? That doesn’t even make sense to me anymore. The one thing that I have been noticing about getting older is, that the hangover are lasting more… like a couple of days.

I’ve been thinking about quitting drinking for a while, but it’s just like smoking. If you hangout with people who smoke, it is harder to quit. So I guess, I’ll just have to stay away from my drinking buddies for a while. Plus, I know for a fact, that there’s no health benefits from drinking. I just don’t get it. Why do I drink anyway? I guess I just do it to “have a good time with friends”. But to be honest with you, I could have a good time while I’m drinking with them, but then the next few days, I feel like shit. I know that when I stop drinking, I will feel good healthy wise. Why? Because I have been able to stay sober for a month with no problem. I’ll see how it goes, but I’m more sure that I will stay away from alcohol for a while. I really do feel good when I don’t drink.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

The Drinking Game

OK, I can’t tell a lie, I did drink this past weekend. So why do I drink? Because I don’t have shit to do on the weekends. You see, I do run errands with my wife early Saturday mornings, but after that, I don’t have shit to do, than to watch TV or mix or listen to some House music. I know! I know! I know! I know! I know! Why don’t I look for something better to do on my free time? I have to say, it is not easy, specially in the Winter time. You have to understand, that I hate the cold weather and the snow, so there is no chance in hell, that I will go outside to do shit.

My shrink has suggested numerous times, that I do volunteer work on my free time, but the thing about is that most organization want me to commit a set amount of time, which I can’t do. I mean, I’m only off from work on Saturdays and Sundays and I feel that if I volunteer one or both days, I’m not going to get the rest that I need and I won’t have any alone time. Yes! Yes! Yes! I really like and enjoy some alone time to reboot and recharge my body and my mind. So next time, I’ll just have to stop the stinking thinking as soon as it starts.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

2018?… Big Deal!

I know that to my loyal 1.5 readers, this post might come as a surprise, since I deleted all of my previous posts and haven’t posted in weeks. To be honest with you, I’ve been busy with the only bad hobby that I haven’t been able to get rid off….. yes, get rid off….. and that is binge drinking on the weekends. I mean, previously I have been able to stop drinking for an entire month, but once I hit that mark, all bets are off for just one weekend at a time. In other words, I can’t seem to go over the one month sober mark, without getting fucked up on the fifth weekend.

The one thing about 2018 is, that I am planning on drinking less. Don’t get me wrong, it is not a new year resolution, because I really fucking hate new year resolutions, I find them to be fucking stupid and pointless. People keep making them and breaking them like if there’s no tomorrow. The way that I am looking at my drinking this year is, to limit it to special occasions, not just drinking every weekend just for the hell of it. To be honest with you, I feel that my age is catching up with my drinking and so the hangovers are lasting longer, if that makes any sense to you. Well, I’ll just take a chill pill, relax and enjoy my weekends without any alcohol or binge drinking. I have a whole year in front of me, I’ll just see how it goes.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!