My Dreaded Wednesday

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First things first my peeps! Wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours today, I hope that you are having a good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. As always, enjoy your hump day to the fullest and don’t let nobody fuck it for you.

On a I hate what I’m doing today at work note! Today is Wednesday and I am doing what I hate the most about my job… being on the phone the whole day. Don’t get me wrong, I really do like my job, but I guess, that after working for around two years in the call center, I was left traumatized. Even though the majority of the calls that we get in our department right now are simple ones and mostly from government agencies, there are still those few dreaded ones. Another thing is, that I can’t take as many smoke breaks as I usually do. Also my lunch break schedule is changed, from whenever I want to take it, to whenever they schedule me to take it, which sucks BIG time. But… I really can’t complain, at least I have a job that pays the bills. Which unfortunately, is something that a lot of people around this crazy planet of ours, can’t say right now. Oh well, I’ll just have to wait until I’m schedule to do what I really love about my job… which is working on the incoming email and faxes. All that I can say is that… It is what it is and I am not going to let it fuck up my day… no matter what goes down.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

Morning Depression Sucks!

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What up! What up! What up! What up y’all! I just want to say, that wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours right now, have a good morning, good afternoon, good evening and good night. As always, enjoy your hump day to the fullest and don’t let nothing or nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

On a morning depression note! As I write this post, I’m on my way to the salt mines (Work) and I’m really feeling like shit this morning. I’ve experienced what they call morning depression before, but I have not been able to figure out why it happens to me. I really, really feel like a worthless piece of shit right now. I just want to be left alone. I just don’t want to talk to nobody at all. I just fucking hate feeling like this. But I refuse to stay in bed and avoid any human contact. I also have a headache, but not even that is going to stop me. The thing is, that I am feeling mixed emotions, like anger, sadness and depression… it doesn’t even make sense to me at all. Yesterday morning, I felt exactly the same way, but a few hours after I got to the salt mines, I started to feel better. As a matter of fact, after a one-and-a-half-hour meeting, a co-worker of mine told me that I looked very happy. Go figure, it goes to show you how good I am at hiding my feelings and emotions. I just hope, that I get over this shit soon. Lucky for me, that I have an appointment with my shrink Dr. C after work tomorrow. I’ll see how that goes down and what he thinks about this fucking nonsense that has been driving me crazy for the last two days.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

Don’t Believe The Hype About Crazy Meds

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What up! What up! What up! What up y’all! I Just hope that wherever you are right now in this crazy planet of ours, you are having a great morning, afternoon, evening or night. Enjoy your Wednesday to the fullest and don’t let absolutely nobody or nothing, fuck it up for you, no matter what happens. Now!... On my drinking side of things, today is my sixteenth alcohol free day and I feel like Tony the fucking tiger… GRRRRREAT!

On a crazy meds note! I remember, that around thirteen years ago, when I started taking crazy meds for the first time, as soon as I got the meds from my drug dealer (Pharmacist), I would go online to learn about them, but most importantly, to find out about the possible side effects and to read what others had experienced while on them and what were their thoughts. The thing was, that with the online over-saturation of information about crazy meds, I used to get worked up over absolutely nothing. I remember that just a few minutes after taking my first dose, I would start feeling weird, when in reality, it took about a week or so, before I felt something. My point? If you are put on crazy meds, do go ahead and do some research online, just don’t go overboard. Also, don’t believe all the bullshit that you read online, you have to remember that crazy meds affect everyone differently. Plus, if you are giving crazy meds a try, you must have patience and roll with the punches.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!