Life Is Just Life

It’s funny how many lifestyle bloggers are out there in the blogosphere, specially people that just want to become famous and make a ton of money. With me, that’s not the case. My shrink even told me a couple of times in the past, that I can be sort of an expert when it comes to blogging about bipolar II disorder, OCD and social anxiety disorder, since I have suffered from them for so many years. But you see, the thing about me is, that I find it more interesting, to blog about the shit that I go through in life everyday, rather than to be a niche blogger. I really can’t imagine myself, blogging everyday about the same old shit. I mean, in how many ways, can I explain to my loyal 1.5 reader, what suffering from bipolar II disorder, Pure-O OCD and social anxiety disorder is like? I mean, do people really want to read the same shit every fucking day? I BET NOT!

I know that some people might think, that if I blog about my disorders, I might be able to help others that are going through what I have gone through. But you have to understand, that I have been suffering from them for as long as I can remember, so to me, it’s just something normal. It’s just like someone that is born without a limb. To that person, it’s not a big deal, life is just life. But for someone looking in from the outside, that is a totally different story. I guess that what I am trying to say is, that even though I suffer from multiple mental disorders, to me life is life and it feels great. OK! Most of the time.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!


Low Sex Drive

For those of you who might not know, I suffer from Bipolar disorder II, OCD and social anxiety disorder. The point being is, that I have been on crazy meds for more than ten years. The truth of the matter is, that I was afraid of going off of the crazy meds for many reasons, one is being depressed again and two, my OCD getting worst again. You have to understand that even though SSRI’s have many side effects, it doesn’t mean that users will experience all of them or better yet, some of them. I have to say, that when I started the crazy meds, I did experience some side effects that went away within a few weeks, but there was one that didn’t.

The one side effect that never went away was low sex drive. Actually, I didn’t put my finger on the problem, until a few months ago. Don’t get me wrong, antidepressants have worked wonders for me when it came to depression, OCD and Social Anxiety Disorder, but it all came at a high price. You have to understand, that I am 48 years old and I don’t have an erection problem, it’s just that my sex drive was lower than what it was before I went on antidepressants. So what did I do? I decided to go off of the med without telling my shrink. I haven’t seen any change yet, but I know for a fact, that it will take a few weeks for the med to get out of my system completely. Fingers crossed and I am looking forward, for my sex drive to get back to normal again.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

I Don’t Use My Mental Disorders As An Excuse

As per my shrink, I suffer from Bipolar II disorder, OCD and Social Anxiety Disorder. If you read my about page, you will know by know that I was on a few crazy meds for my crazy mental disorders. But to be honest with you, and lets keep this on the quiet side, because I haven’t told my shrink yet….. I stopped taking the Buspirone and the Prozac and I am only taking the Risperidone, because I have realized, that I really need it to control my crazy mood swings that can change at any time, just like it happened this morning, because I didn’t take it last night before going to bed.

What’s my point with this post? My point is, that five days a week, I have to wake up at 4:30 am to get ready to go to work. You see, unlike SOME people who use their mental disorders as an excuse to get away with not working and not taking responsibility for other shits that they have to, sometimes I feel depressed, down and like shit. But if I don’t go to work, I don’t get paid and if I don’t get paid, I can’t pay my bills. What I am trying to say is….. don’t use your mental disorders in order to get away with murder, because that is sad and pathetic. Grow the fuck up and take responsibility of your life. Do get help and take crazy meds if needed, but please! please! please! stop acting like a little fucking bitch. I suffer from multiple mental disorders, but I put them in the back burner and I take care of my responsibilities, because my problems are my problems and nobody else.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!