I’m Feeling Better Now

On 03/03/26 was my first year without my baby, after eleven years, I lost my baby, my best friend and my partner in crime. It hasn’t been easy, and I new that the depression that was setting in, as the date got closer and closer, was because I always wanted him to be with me, which is something that I knew in my heart, was impossible, because it part of life.

As the days go by, the depression, sadness and pain, is still iside of me, but it’s becoming less and less. I know that I will never forget him, because we were part of each other’s life for 11 long, happy and incredible years. We both gave unconditional love to one another, which is n=something that I can’t say about many humans. Just like my other baby, who I lost when he was only 5 years old, I had him cremated and I keep both of them in my bedroom, sere they are close to me, and were I can say good morning and good night to them every day.

I know that in time, it will get easier, but I know for a fact, that the pain will always be there.

I miss you so much my two babies, like nobody will ever now, because our love for one another was was unique.

The Pattern Interrupt

“Your brain is a biological computer, and sometimes it runs a glitchy program.”

“Harm OCD tries to tell you who you are based on a random thought. That’s a lie. You are the observer, not the thought. When that spike hits, don’t cower. Stand up. Change your breathing. Break the pattern.”

“Who is in control? You or the glitch? Decide now.”

    My Fresh Start

    “Deleted the past, kept the meds. I’m Tony, and this is ‘A Crazy Man With A Blog.’ Between Bipolar II, Harm OCD, GAD, Depression and AUD, my brain is a spicy mess—but at least it’s an honest one. No filters, just real talk, dark humor, and the truth about my ‘crazy’ life. Glad you’re here for the chaos.”