Tony At! Dinner

 

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What up! What up! What up y’all! Today is Sunday July 22, 2018 and it means that I have been sober for one month and four days or rather yet, thirty-four days. As always, I feel like Tony the fucking tiger… GRRRRREAT! No anxiety, no depression, no hangover, no regrets… I mean nothing! I just hope that wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, you are having a good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. Always try to enjoy it to the fullest and don’t let nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

On a dinner with my wife note! Well, as I said before, that I will try to go out and do something different every weekend to get out of the apartment, yesterday I decided to go out with my wife for dinner. Don’t get me wrong, we do this very often. Since our two kids are adults now and they have their own thing going on in their lives and with their friends, my wife and I just love to have a quiet dinner among ourselves. We drove to this place that my wife loves called International Buffet, in New Jersey. It’s an all you can eat buffet, but since a couple of years ago I had stomach surgery to lose weight, I can’t eat a lot, so I had my food to take home. I have to tell you, I really had a lot of fun and like always, I really enjoyed the time alone with her, because we get to catch up on a lot of things. Plus there was a big smile on my wife’s face. You see, anytime that she’s happy, I’m happy.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

I Didn’t Become A Criminal

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First things first my peeps! Today is Saturday July 21, 2018 and it marks my 33rd sober day and as always, I feel like Tony the tiger… GRRRRREAT! I just hope that wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, you are having a good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. Always try to enjoy it to the fullest and don’t let nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

On a criminal mind note! For those of you who might know me, I’m a forty-eight year old Afro-Dominican man. I grew up in New York City with my mother and six older sisters. My father left the family when I was around twelve years old, so for most of my life, I didn’t have a father. The thing about me is, that even if I went through my rebellious teen years and did some crazy shits, I didn’t become a criminal. My family was poor and had the electricity disconnected many times, but I didn’t become a criminal. I grew up in one of the worst neighborhoods in New York City at the time, but I didn’t become a criminal. I dropped out of high school at around the age of fifteen, but I didn’t become a criminal. My point? I could have used a lot of excuses and life tragedies, to justify a criminal life, but I didn’t. Absolutely nobody and I mean nobody, had to tell me that committing crimes was not only illegal, but wrong. My thing is, why do so many so-called “MEN” become criminals? Why do they have to blame others and society for their fuck ups?

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

Fuck Empathy!

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First things first my peeps! Today is Friday July 20, 2018 and it marks my 32nd sober day and as always, I feel like Tony the tiger… GRRRRREAT! I just hope that wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, you are having a good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. Always try to enjoy it to the fullest and don’t let nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

On a fuck empathy note! Some people might think that I’m crazy, an ignorant, going through some kind of bipolar mood swing or better yet, an asshole, but I’m not, I just don’t like to sugar coat shit, because it doesn’t matter if you sugar coat it, put sprinkles and a cherry on top of it… it is still going be shit. Now a days all over the world, all I hear are people talking shit about empathy. To be honest with you, I feel that the world is just full of pussies. Yes that’s right!… PUSSIES! It just bothers me, to see so many people complain on a daily basis, how their lives are fucked up, yet they don’t do shit to change it. The thing is, that when people like myself say something, we are looked upon as the bad guys. To be honest with you, I don’t entertain bullshit. At work, I’ve seen a guy who is missing half of his left arm, a guy on a wheelchair and many others with mental and physical disabilities, who everyday go to work. So please, explain to me, why I should feel empathy for people who don’t want to do shit with their lives, except complain? Trust me, I feel empathy for those who are struggling in life and are trying to make the best of it. It’s just that small group of assholes, that don’t want to do shit, but complain.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

My Mental Health Sucks, But…

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First things first my peeps! Today is Thursday July 19, 2018 and it marks my 31st sober day and as always, I feel like Tony the fucking tiger… GRRRRREAT! I just hope that wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, you are having a good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. Always try to enjoy it to the fullest and don’t let nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

On a mental health note! Not for nothing, but one thing that I hate, are people who are always complaining about their mental disorders. I mean, I suffer from bipolar II disorder, OCD and Social Anxiety Disorder, but one thing that you won’t hear from is, me complaining about or talking about them on a daily basis. The thing with me is, that throughout the years, I’ve learned that it is healthier for me to try to live a healthy life… Plus people don’t want to hear me complaining about the same old shit every fucking day. That’s the reason why you see me trying to live a “normal life”. What I mean by that is, that I go out socialize with family, friends and co-workers and have fun. I do have my share of mental problems and I take crazy meds for them, but I can assure you, that I’m not going to let them shit stop me from enjoying my life. The way that I look at it is, that the less I talk about them, the better I feel. The more I talk about them, the more I worry and the worst I feel.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

ONE SOBER MONTH!

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What up! What up! What up y’all! Today is Wednesday July 18, 2018 and it marks my 30th sober day, which only means one thing… I HAVE BEEN SOBER FOR ONE WHOLE FUCKING MONTH Y’ALL! I just hope that wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, you are having a good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. Always try to enjoy it to the fullest and don’t let nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

On a sober month note! I have to say, that even though I’ve been sober for one month before, this time is different, because I’m not planning on going back to drinking like I did before. This time I have the support of my family and friends. As a matter of fact, my wife and daughter have told everyone that visits us, that alcohol is not allowed in our home… which is good, because temptation is a motherfucker. Even when we go out, my wife doesn’t drink, because she respects and support me on my struggle with alcohol. But as to being sober for so long, it really feels fucking great. I don’t feel anxious, depressed, sick, remorseful or plain and simply put, like shit. As you might have seen on my previous posts, I have been enjoying my weekends to the fullest without being sick to my stomach. The thing about being sober is, that alcohol is not keeping me isolated and away from places that I’ve been wanting to visit for years. I have been able to go out and enjoy places, that I haven’t been able to, because I was too busy drinking my time and life away. I’m not going to lie, I had my share of urges to drink, but I never gave in on them. Since I only like drinking on the weekends, I’m taking it one weekend at a time. No more, no less.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

It’s OK To Give Up

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What up! What up! What up my peeps! Today is Tuesday July 17, 2018 and it marks my 29th sober day and as always, I feel like Tony the fucking tiger… GRRRRREAT! No anxiety, no depression, no hangover, no regrets… I mean nothing! I just hope that wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, you are having a good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. Always try to enjoy it to the fullest and don’t let nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

On a giving up note! Growing up, we are told never to give up, that the sky is the limit and to follow our dreams. The reality of it all is, that we can’t listen to all that bullshit. I know that we have to try our best in life, but one thing for sure is, that we can’t go crazy while we are at it. Hey look, I’ve dropped out college three times… Yes you read that right… Three times. The thing is, that I already gave up on my dream of getting a college degree. The reason for that is, that I’m happy where I’m at in life right now. I’m not saying that my life is perfect, but I feel comfortable the way that everything is going. I do have my share of financial, family and mental problems, but they are not things that a degree is going to change or fix. I used to kick myself in the ass a lot before, not anymore, because I’m OK with who I have become.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

Tony At! A Wedding

 

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First things first my peeps! Today is Monday July 16, 2018 and it marks my 28th sober day and as always, I feel like Tony the tiger… GRRRRREAT! I just hope that wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, you are having a good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. Always try to enjoy it to the fullest and don’t let nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

On a having fun note! Even though I hate going to parties on Sundays, yesterday I had to attend my co-worker’s and good friend’s wedding. In other words, there are exceptions to my rule. The thing is, that my wife and I really had a lot of fun, since we were siting at the same table with many of my co-workers. Even though my wife and I didn’t drink any alcohol, we still had a lot of fun and we laughed a lot. We did get home late and I still have to go to the salt mines today, but it was all worth it. It’s funny, because my wife was already talking to me about going to Madame Tussauds New York next Sunday. I have to say, that I love her to death, not only because we have been together for thirty years, but because we love, understand and support each other. May we be together for thirty more years.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!