The Risperidone Side Effect

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Good morning and happy Saturday y’all! As always, I hope that you are having a great morning, noon, evening or night depending on where you find yourself at this moment in time in this crazy planet of ours. Also, don’t forget to enjoy your day to the fullest and please, do not let nobody mess it up for you no matter what happens. Remember to say good morning, good night, please, thank you, hello and goodbye with a smile on your face… trust me it won’t kill you. Unless you say it to a serial killer!

First things first!… For those of my loyal two or three readers who might not know by now, Risperidone is an atypical antipsychotic drug that in my case, was prescribed to me, in order to keep my bipolar II disorder mood swings under control. The thing is, that even though I have been taking it once a day for a couple of weeks now and only at night, compared to before when I took it twice a day and I was falling asleep at work, right now I’m still waking up in the morning feeling drowsy. I’ve noticed that it stays in my system for around twelve hours or so. My problem is, that I can’t take it at 5:00 pm because I have things to do when I get home from work at around 5:15 pm… I can’t even do that on the weekends. Yesterday, the only solution that I came up with, was taking half a pill instead of an entire one. I guess I’ll just have to go with that plan for a couple of days and see how it goes with the drowsiness and my mood. Fingers crossed! Then I’ll let my shrink Dr. C know about it, when I see him again in our next session. I know that he will understand, because he always works with me with everything that I need.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

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Chilling Like A Villain

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Good morning and TGIF y’all! Like always, I hope that you are having a great Friday morning, noon, evening or night depending on where you find yourself at this moment in time in this crazy planet of ours. Also, don’t forget to enjoy your day to the fullest and please, do not let nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

On a weekend note! Since I already drank last weekend, this weekend I am planning on just doing what I usually do on my weekends off from work, which is do some errands with my wife, walk my lovable dog Nino twice a day, eat, watch TV, chat with my online friends, maybe listen to some old school House music and deal with whatever my wife and kids throw at me or comes up unexpectedly. The one thing that you can be 100% sure about this weekend is, that I won’t be drinking any alcohol. As I’ve mentioned before, I have been staying sober for longer periods of time, because I don’t want to go back to binge drinking every weekend, the way that I used to do before. Plus my wife is happier when I don’t drink. In other words, I’ll be chilling like a villain this weekend.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

I’m A Weekend Warrior

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Good morning and happy Thursday y’all! Like always, I hope that you are having an excellent Thursday morning, noon, evening or night depending on where you find yourself at this moment in time in this crazy planet of ours. Also, don’t forget to enjoy your day to the fullest and please, do not let nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

On a binge drinking note! About seven or eight years ago, I decided to take advantage of the alcohol and substance abuse program that my employer offers and so I went to a rehab facility in upstate New York for thirty days. The thing is, that compared to the people I met in rehab and in the few AA meetings that I attended, I started to doubt that I was really an alcoholic. Even some of the guys in rehab, told me that I was just what they call “a weekend warrior” when it comes to drinking. Don’t get me wrong, I know that I binge drink on the weekends and that’s not good, but that’s all that I do. I just like to stay home and drink with friends and family or just watch some TV, listen to some music and or have conversations with my online friends. Nothing more, nothing less. The way that I look at it is, that I might not be able to stop drinking when I get started on the few weekends that I do drink, but to be honest with you, I don’t see myself as an alcoholic. One thing that I can tell you for sure is that even if someone offers me a free case of beer during my work days, you can be 100% sure, that I will turn it down. Now if it is on a Friday or Saturday, then that’s a totally different story. The one thing that I know that I have to do is, to cut down on the amount of weekends that I drink.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

My Weekend Drinking

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Good morning and happy hump day y’all! Like always, I hope that you are having a great Wednesday morning, noon, evening or night depending on where you find yourself at this moment in time in this crazy planet of ours. Also, don’t forget to enjoy your day to the fullest and please, do not let nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens. As for work today, I will be processing government payments, attending a two-hour stupid quarterly meeting and I will also be the phone backup, when my co-workers go on lunch break. UGH! To be honest with you, I don’t mind the payments, I just hate meetings and the phone. But I gotta do what pays the bills.

On a weekend drinking note! Last weekend I had a couple of beers with friends and family, to be honest, we really had a good time talking about the good old days. But one thing that I can say is, that I didn’t binge drink like I usually do. Another thing is, that I have been leaving a space of a couple of weekends, between the times that I drink. Which is good for me, since a while back, I used to drink every weekend. To some people, it might not sound good, but to be honest with you, I think that I have been making really good progress when it comes to my drinking. My wife still doesn’t like me drinking, even if I don’t do it every weekend, it’s just that she’s afraid that I will binge. I don’t blame her, because I know that I don’t have a good track record when it comes to my weekend drinking. This time, I didn’t drink for three weekends, who knows, maybe next time I will go for four weekends. One thing for sure is, that I don’t consider myself and alcoholic, because I only drink on some weekends. I know that I put myself in rehab about seven years ago, but that’s a story for tomorrow’s post.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

My Butterfly Effect

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Good morning and happy Tuesday y’all! Like always, I hope that you are having a great morning, noon, evening or night depending on where you find yourself at this moment in time in this crazy planet of ours. Also, don’t forget to enjoy your day to the fullest and please… do not let nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens. Always remember, that opinions are like assholes, everyone has one but they think each others stink.

On a mind full of crazy thoughts note! Ever since I was about four or five years old, for some unknown reason, I started asking questions about life and why things happened the way that they did. I have to say, that it really annoyed the living shit out of my dad and sisters, because they didn’t have all the answers to my all of my questions. But ever since I watched the 2004 film “The butterfly effect”, I have been further intrigued by how and why things happen in life. I know that right about now, my loyal 1.5 readers might think that I sound crazy, creepy or even come across as being weird. But looking back at my life and where I come from, I have to ask myself. Was it all coincidence, luck or was it all supposed to happen the way that it did because it was all part of a bigger plan? I mean, don’t get me wrong, I know that I will never find the answer to my question. But it is something that has been bouncing in my head for as far back as I can remember. I think about all the decisions and actions that so many people had to make and take in their lives, and all of the things that had to happen so many years ago, in order for me to be born exactly on Sunday October 19, 1969 in The Dominican Republic. Not only that, but was it all coincidence, luck or part of a bigger plan, for me to be where I am in life right now?

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

I’m Back On Risperidone

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Good morning and happy Monday y’all! I know exactly what you might be thinking right about now. What the fuck can possibly be so fucking happy about a Monday Tony? Hey!… at least we are alive. That’s what really counts. Like always, I hope that you are having a great morning, noon, evening or night depending on where you find yourself at this moment in time in this crazy planet of ours. Also, don’t forget to enjoy your day to the fullest and pleasedo not let nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

On a crazy med note! Last Wednesday April 11, I had another session with my excellent shrink Dr. C. As usual, he asked about my bipolar mood and OCD intrusive thoughts, at which time I told him that nothing has changed. You see, Prozac has only helped me with my depression and anxiety, but not my intrusive thoughts. But that’s another post. So to make sure that I don’t experience any mood swings, which I have in the past, we decided that I will go back on Risperidone, The thing is, that I used to take it twice a day, and when I took my second dose while at work, I would get really drowsy and sometimes even fall asleep at my desk. So this time, we decided that I will only take 2 mg at night. The truth is, that I really like taking the Risperidone at night, because together with the Ambien, I feel that I get more sleep.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

Don’t Listen To The Fucking Noise

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Good morning and happy Sunday y’all! I know! I know! I know! I know! I know! You need Sundays like you need a hole in your head… Right? Hey! Just look at the bright side… we get to do it all over again! So if you fucked up big time yesterday, you get another chance to clean up your shit today and try it again. Woo! Hoo!… Like always, I hope that you are having a great morning, noon, evening or night depending on where you find yourself at this moment in time in this crazy planet of ours. Also, don’t forget to enjoy your day to the fullest and don’t let nobody fuck it up for you, no matter what happens.

On a mental health note! I personally feel that telling someone who is suffering from a mental illness to just get over it, is like telling someone in a wheelchair, that they are just too lazy to get up and walk. It just fucking irritates the shit out of me. Another thing that really bothers me is, when I hear someone say that people don’t need a shrink or even crazy meds to deal with their mental illness. They just have to face life the same way that everyone else is doing it. Now who the fuck died and made that asshole a doctor? Hey look! Only because I can’t feel someone else’s pain, doesn’t mean that they are not in pain. And only because I feel healthy, doesn’t mean that someone else is not sick. My point?  Fuck whatever negative shit others say about your mental health. Only you, your shrink and or other mental health care provider, know what’s really good for you and what will help you in the long run. So please… stop listening to all that fucking noise!

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!