Good morning and happy Friday to the few crazies who dare to follow and actually read, this boring and crazy blog of mine. To get to the point… even though I see my shrink once a month and I take my crazy meds every day, my mind keeps playing tricks on me, and that is the reason, why I keep changing the direction that I take, every time that I start a new project. Example? This crazy blog of mine.
I just wish, that there would be a way, that I can start something from the ground, and finally complete it, without hesitation or second thoughts. The shit is, that having to deal with family, work, my Harm OCD’s violent intrusive thoughts and images, my Bipolar II’s racing thoughts, Anxiety, Depression and Generalized Anxiety Disorder on a daily basis, is not easy. The crazy meds, talk therapy and constant reminding myself that “I got this”, does not always work. On the outside, I might look like if I have everything under control, when in reality, in my inside, everything is fucking falling apart.
But that’s just the reality of being born with mental health disorders. In my mid 30’s I decided to get help, because I couldn’t take it anymore, but that was just the beginning, because I was able to understand, and sometime later, accept that it wasn’t all in my mind and that I wasn’t crazy.
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