The Past Is Just That

Sometimes life sucks, but that’s not what is all about. Sometimes we get stuck in the past and refuse to move on. We blame everybody and their mother, for everything bad that has happened in our lives. The thing is, that it doesn’t matter whose fault was it, we must learn from the past, leave the past in the past and move on.

With that said, I am Audi 5000 y’all!

Saturday Stinking Thinking

Last Saturday afternoon, while I was doing some shopping with my wife, the weirdest thing happened to me. As I looked at the snow come down, I had this strong desire to drink. But I quickly reminded myself, that I have been sober for over a month and I couldn’t fuck that up no matter what. 

Later on, I was able to figure out, that because every time that we had a snow storm on a Saturday, since I’m off from the salt mines, I stayed home drinking and so my brain was associating Saturday and the snow with drinking. But after all was said and done, I dismissed the stinking thinking and got on with my day. One thing for sure is, that I don’t miss the fucked-up hangover. 

With that said, I am Audi 5000 y’all! 

Anxiety Be Gone

Happy Thursday my homies and homettes. I hope that you enjoy your morning, noon, evening or night to the fullest. Remember, it doesn’t matter if you have been clean and or sober for one day, one month or one year, what’s important is, that you are clean and or sober.

Ever since I’ve gotten sober a little over a month ago, I’ve also been trying to reduce my stress, in order to control my anxiety. One way that I’ve been able to do that is, by cutting down on things that can create negative thinking, like the news.

As a matter of fact, I’ve also changed the genre of music that I’m listening to on my way to the salt mines and back home. The way that I look at it is, that I must change the things that I’m exposing myself to, for me to feel better. My idea might sound crazy to some people, but the truth is, that I’ve noticed that it has been working for me. I do feel that my anxiety level has dropped, I feel more relaxed and I feel more optimistic.

With that said, I am Audi 5000 y’all!

Sobriety Counter: 40 Days = 1 Month And 9 Days

To A Great Man And A Big Inspiration

Happy hump day my homies and homettes. I hope that you enjoy your morning, noon, evening or night to the fullest, because we are here one second, then the next we are not. Also, make sure to keep your eyes on the BIG prize, staying clean and or sober.

On Monday, while I was at the salt mines, I got a call from my wife to inform me, that a retired neighbor of ours from across the street had passed away, due to complications from a fall. To be honest, the news really shocked me, because from the time that I was a kid, I really admired him and his wife. Because I used to see them go to and come from work, being a quiet couple and never getting into trouble. Every time I had the chance, I sat down and had long conversations with him.

My wife always told me that every time that he saw her, he told her that he admired me, because as he put it, the type of man that I have always been. He always told her, that he saw me coming from work, walking my dog and never getting into trouble. I believe that during one of our conversations, I told him that I admired him, because he was one of the few people in my block, who inspired me, to be who I am today. As a matter of fact, ever since I was a teenager, I have always enjoyed talking to the elders, because they always have something to teach me. We will all miss him.

With that said, I am Audi 5000 y’all!

Sobriety Counter: 39 Days = 1 Month And 8 Days

To Each His Own

Happy Tuesday my homies and homettes. I hope that you enjoy your morning, noon, evening or night to the fullest and make sure to stay clean or sober.

It’s incredible, how I’ve been sober for a little over a month now, and yet in the last couple of weeks, I had two people, try to get me to drink again. I mean, even after my wife and I, repeatedly told them, that I’m not drinking, these people just kept pushing the fucking subject.

I mean, is not like the two dumb-asses didn’t know that I’m a troubled weekend binge drinker. They’ve known me for many years, and they know the fucked relationship and history that I’ve had with alcohol. The only thing that comes to my mind is, how far some assholes will go, to see me fail. It also gives me a lot of joy and satisfaction, that because I’m doing the right thing, it’s annoying the living shit out of others who are not happy with their own lives.

The way that I have always looked at life is “Live and let live” and “To each his own”. That’s the reason why I never get involved in nobody’s life and I don’t give out advice or opinions.

With that said, I am Audi 5000 y’all!

Sobriety Counter: 38 Days = 1 Month And 7 Days