I’m Back To Reading

Fresh off the boat

What up! What up! What up my peeps! Today is Saturday July 14, 2018 and it marks my 26th sober day and as always, I feel like Tony the fucking tiger… GRRRRREAT! No anxiety, no depression, no hangover, no regrets… I mean nothing! I just hope that wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, you are having a good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. Always try to enjoy it to the fullest and don’t let nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

On a reading note! One thing that I have loved ever since I was a young teenager, is reading a really good and interesting book. The sad thing is, that while I was getting drunk and fucking things up, I lost interest. In between drinking and being sober for a couple of weeks at a time, I would pick up a good autobiography and never put it down, until I was done with it. Well, now that I have been sober for a couple of weeks, my interest in reading has come back. So right now, I’m in the middle of reading Fresh Off the Boat: A Memoir by the American chef, restaurateur, author, food personality, producer and attorney, Eddie Huang. I still have two other books lined up after this one, but since I’m not a book critic, you won’t hear a peep out of me when I’m done reading them.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

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I Was Not My Father’s Son

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First things first my peeps! Today is Thursday July 12, 2018 and it marks my 25th sober day and as always, I feel like Tony the fucking tiger… GRRRRREAT! I just hope that wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, you are having a good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. Always try to enjoy it to the fullest and don’t let nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

On a hating my father note! When I was around eleven or twelve years old, one day, while nobody was at home, my father picked up his things and left the family without telling anyone where he was going, he even took all the money. To be honest with you, after a while, I learned not to care about him. I just forgot that I ever had a father. For around the next twelve years or so, my family didn’t know if he was dead or alive. I have to say, that without him, we did go through a lot of shit, but we did survive. The thing is, that I used to blame him for everything that went wrong in my life… and so I hated him with a passion. When he died in the year 2000, he left all of his children one thousand dollars each. But since I didn’t want anything to do with him, I gave my share to my kids. I remember that I only bought myself a case of beer, to get drunk and celebrate that he was gone. For many, many, many years, I blamed him for all the shit that I went through in life. Until one day, I woke up and realize, that my father wasn’t at fault for everything that I have gone through. I was to blame. I had to change… and change I did, because I didn’t want to be like him.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

I Identify, I Don’t Compare

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First things first my peeps! Today is Thursday July 12, 2018 and it marks my 24th sober day and as always, I feel like Tony the tiger… GRRRRREAT! I just hope that wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, you are having a good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. Always try to enjoy it to the fullest and don’t let nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

On a meeting note! I’ve been noticing, that going to the AA meetings, is like having a session with my shrink, because when I leave, I really feel like if a ton has been lifted off from my shoulders. The truth is, that it really helps to hangout with other alcoholics, because only an alcoholic can understand and help another alcoholic. I really enjoy the sharing in the rooms, because I don’t compare myself, I identify. It’s funny, because sometimes they say things that I might not be proud of, but that I have done in my drinking career. But that’s in the past and there is nothing that I can do to fix it. I just wish, that like the AA meetings, there were OCD meetings. I did find a place where they do have OCD meetings, but everyone has to pay a fee. Who knows, maybe, just maybe in the future, there might even be OCD anonymous meetings all over the world. Fingers crossed.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

I’m Sober And Cheap

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First things first my peeps! Today is Wednesday July 11, 2018 and it marks my 23rd sober day and as always, I feel like Tony the tiger… GRRRRREAT! I just hope that wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, you are having a good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. Always try to enjoy it to the fullest and don’t let nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

On a sober and cheap note! I’s funny that in the last couple of AA meetings, fellow alcoholics have mentioned how after being sober, they have become cheap. You see, the thing is, that looking back at the times that I have been sober, I have realized, that I too have become cheap. I guess the whole thing is, that when I drink, I don’t think and don’t care about spending money… and that’s not only on alcohol, I mean spending money on anything and everything. I also have to admit, that because I fucked up by binge drinking for a couple of days, my wife wasn’t happy with me, so in order to fix things and to get on her good side, I would buy her anything that she wanted and or give her money. Now that I am sober and not fucking up, there is no reason why I should spend money like a crazy person. Plus now, I think and analyze each situation, before I spend a red penny. Oh, one last thing! I have been trying to save the money that I would have spent on beer, if I was still drinking.  I’ll use it on things that I’ve been wanting to buy, like books and other useful things, like paying for this here crazy blog of mine.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

Did Alcohol Make Me Lazy?

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First things first my peeps! Today is Tuesday July 10, 2018 and it marks my 22nd sober day and as always, I feel like Tony the tiger… GRRRRREAT! I just hope that wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, you are having a good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. Always try to enjoy it to the fullest and don’t let nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

On a lazy ass note! One thing that I have noticed throughout the years is that I have gotten really lazy, compared to how active I used to be up until my mid 20’s. I mean, don’t get me wrong, I’m not going to blame it all on the alcohol, but I have to say, that I enjoyed drinking at home more than anywhere else. The thing is, that when I get home from work, I don’t feel like going to my AA meetings. But it’s not that I don’t like or enjoy them, it’s just that I want to stay home doing nothing. I think that I just got used to going home after work, walk my dog, eat dinner and watch TV afterwards. Then on Saturday, I would run some errands with my wife and once I got home in the evening, I would start drinking. The whole thing is, that I have to get off of my lazy ass and do things that I used to do before I got into the bad habit of just lying around doing shit or drinking. I really have to find things to do, that will get me out of the apartment and make me active again.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

Tony At! The New York Transit Museum

 

 

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What up! What up! What up my peeps! Today is Monday July 9, 2018 and it marks my 21st sober day and as always, I feel like Tony the fucking tiger… GRRRRREAT! No anxiety, no depression, no hangover, no regrets… I mean nothing! I just hope that wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, you are having a good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. Always try to enjoy it to the fullest and don’t let nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

On a day trip note! Since I decided to try to visit a new place every Sunday, yesterday I decided to visit The New York Transit Museum in Brooklyn, New York. I’ve been wanting to visit for so fucking long, that I can’t remember how long has it been. Well, to be honest with you, I really enjoyed it to the fullest. As soon as I saw the old train cars, I felt like a little kid in a toy store. It was incredible how I was able to sit in train cars, dating back to a hundred years or more. I have to say, that I took close to three hundred pictures, but only posted 100+. The most amazing thing was, that the train ride took me one hour each way, plus the whole thing only came up to fifteen dollars and fifty cents for the admission to the museum and my train ride both ways. As to where will I be next Sunday? At a co-worker’s wedding.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

Tony At! Perth Amboy, New Jersey

 

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First things first my peeps! Today is Sunday July 8, 2018 and it marks my 20th sober day and as always, I feel like Tony the tiger… GRRRRREAT! I just hope that wherever you are in this crazy planet of ours, you are having a good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. Always try to enjoy it to the fullest and don’t let nobody fuck it up for you no matter what happens.

On a family get together note! Yesterday I drove to Perth Amboy, New Jersey with my wife, daughter and mother in law, for a family BBQ, welcoming my wife’s aunt’s husband to the U.S. for the first time. I did enjoyed it after a while, but I have to admit, that at first, I was in a really shitty mood, because I had people drinking alcohol all around me and I couldn’t drink. But then I realize, that since I’m early in my sobriety, it will be better for me to stay away from people and places. I mean, don’t get me wrong, I wasn’t even planing on drinking, even after I was offered beer and hard liquor many times, I wasn’t even close to touching the thing. I guess I can say, that I learned a hard lesson early in my sobriety… to keep away from them drinking mother fuckers! Something good did come out of the trip, because I got to eat a lot and I talked with people who I haven’t seen in a while. So it wasn’t a waste of time after all.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!